By Judy Vashti Persad
In my dream I am driving on a reddish-brown dirt road in Trinidad. At a crossroad, I turn left and drive over a single-lane bridge to arrive at my aunt’s home, where Ma, my beloved grandmother, lives. I enter a large room filled with other women—relatives and friends. My aunt, also an ECKist, hugs me. “You made it in the fifth hour,” she breathes. She points to Ma, lying on the far side of the room.
As I approach my grandmother, she sits up to greet me. But her physical body remains lying on the bed. We stand face-to-face in our Soul bodies, only inches apart. Silently her voice speaks to me: “Jude, I am going. It’s time. I love you very much.”
I awoke with a start, feeling as though I was returning from somewhere more real than the sheets around me and deeper than my skin. My heartbeat was all I could hear. I sat up in bed hugging my knees, waiting for the phone call from Trinidad to tell me my grandmother had left, but it never came. I realized the dream was my call to go to Trinidad.
In the morning, I called my Mum. “I’m coming home to see Ma,” I told her.
“She’s very close to death,” Mum replied. “You may just make it for her funeral.”
“I’ll be there!” I said.
Miraculously, I caught a plane at 11:00 that very night. On the flight, I kept talking to my grandmother. “I’m on my way. I so want to see you, but if you need to leave, I don’t want to hold you back.”
As the plane touched Trinidad soil, I looked at my watch. It was 6:43 a.m. My cousin picked me up, reassuring me that Ma was still hanging on.
To avoid the morning traffic, he took an unfamiliar back road through fields of sugar cane. Unfamiliar until I recognized the reddish-brown dirt road from my dream. At a crossroad, we turned left and drove over the same single-lane bridge I had crossed in my dream.
I knew then I would be there in time to say good-bye to Ma.
Arriving at my aunt’s home, I raced upstairs and told her of my dream. “Let’s say a prayer with Ma,” she replied. She lifted my grandmother to a sitting position and held her there while I sang HU, the beautiful prayer song to God. Then I spoke gently to her of my love and of the love of family back in Canada who could not be there.
Although Ma was unable to move, I felt her arms raise up and encircle me. I felt the powerful force of love flowing through me and all around the three of us—my grandmother gave me her final loving hug. Then we laid her back to rest and sat at a respectful distance to allow her an undisturbed and peaceful translation (death).
Suddenly, the sunny and tranquil day was transformed. A wind began to rage around us, whipping the curtains and wind chimes to a frenzy. My mum and aunt ran to close the window louvers against the sudden, driving rain.
Without knowing why, I went to Ma’s bedside, leaned in close to her face, and with my left hand began rubbing her chest as I had done so many times to ease her heart pains. With my right hand, I caressed the soft warm skin of her forehead and inhaled her beloved scent of coconut oil. I kissed her forehead and cheek, whispering, “Ma, if it’s time to go now, it’s easy. Just let go. God is here.”
She took a breath, and then another. And then no more. As she crossed the border between the worlds, I felt I was touching eternity.
“Mum, it’s happening.” I called out. Everyone gathered around Ma’s bed. The wind and rain stopped as suddenly as it had started. The passageway between the worlds was closed again. My precious grandmother had entered another room.
Two days after Ma’s funeral, I realized the significance of my aunt’s words in my dream: “You made it in the fifth hour.” My plane had touched down in Trinidad at exactly 6:43 a.m., and Ma left this world at 11:43 a.m.—precisely five hours later.
The guidance in my dream had led me to a precious gift—an experience of the power of love to connect us, Soul to Soul, even across the barriers between worlds.